Paul frank is my friend(:

@8:02 PM

an hour ago, i just realised i have never ,ever in my entire life, worked hard for something at all. it sounds strange but its true. believe it or not. thats me. be it exams or whatever, i never slogged my heart out cause my heart was never into it. my marks may seem low to others but to me it was a relief.u wanna noe why? i never expect anything from myself. exam period: i come home i talk on the phone . and i wld just talk abt how nervous we are but somehow, i never did anything abt it.
and suddenly, i realise that i really wanted smt really really really bad. and it meant, i need to work HARD, more than talking on the phone. to get what i really really want. i have worked but i never seriously worked hard. it looks that i am but half the time im daydreaming abt insignificant stuff. and rite now, im wondering how in the world am i gonna do that. cause this is smt that i really really want.and those who noe me well enough is that when i want smt, i will get it no matter cause nothing is gonna stop me. for example, if i felt like eating fish and chips i will get it. but this is smt bigger than fish and chips is, bigger than anything i ever wanted in the world. sometimes u feel like giving up but if u really want smt u will go all out even if it means sacrifice etc. u will do anything to guarantee happiness in your life. but i dun think im capable of doing that. it will take a lot more than brains and brawns. its like a lifetime want that is gonna put me in a platinum mood forever. im talking SIM-lingo again.haha

am i talking crap? i just wanted to say that i have smt i really really really want. really badly. its kind of obvious.i said that a lot of times!haha